standing or just fall

I don't understand anymore. sometimes its normal, sometimes, it feel wrong all over
I'm sighing over and over like an old soul, wailing and thinking, looking
Looking at the problems and hoping you'd find the best solution
I wish I can stand next to you,
but I can only look from afar,
Dear me,
Give me strength, just so I can smile and be proud
When inside I'm aching to do the same,
But hey, don't mind me, just look ahead,
If its written, then, I , too, will be there someday
Not too soon, nor too late
Just give me strength
Because as you stand on the podium,
I smile and beamed,
and I break silently